I Have a Desire Bible

I Have a Desire

We have desires, longings, thirsts, but can God meet these? What does the Bible say about desire and delight? I have a desire. Actually, I have multiple desires. Desires that I might not even be consciously aware of can be drivers of my behaviour. Often when I listen to people […]

A Little Taste of Zimzum

A Little Taste of Zimzum

Every now and then I get a taste of Zimzum. A sense of a contraction and a making of space for me and others.  I’ve always been puzzled about how the voluntary creating of space for another person has a deep effect on the other, especially those who have experienced […]

A Pathway No one Knew was There!

A Pathway No one Knew was There!

I like known ways. Reliable pathways. But God often wants to show us a pathway no one knew was there! Ready to be surprised? Something had to change because it felt like I had been walking the same pathway in a perpetual rutted circle. Around and around, digging a deeper […]

Sitting in God’s Joy

Sitting in God’s Joy

Where I focus, I will go. What would happen if I chose to sit in God’s joy of me? Perhaps some of the old would be washed away.   It was a deep approval. The smile, the welcome, the love. The banner was stretched out wide, saying, ‘This is home’. […]

Don't shoot. I'm wounded. I'm different

Don’t Shoot. I’m Wounded. I’m Different

When we don’t slow down and seek to understand, it’s easy to shoot our wounded. My plea is ‘Don’t Shoot. I’m wounded. I’m different/divergent.’   I recently watched this video of a pair of horses being very frightened by a rabbit. The two horses were walking down a narrow country […]

Is God Concerned With Your Happiness

Is God Concerned With Your Happiness?

Life can have many traumatic events, but is God concerned about your happiness? Yes, and there is a quest happening. I’ve been doing a sailing course over the last month. Learning how a sailboat worked. I knew the physics, but I wanted to feel what it was like to be […]

Do you have Church Anxiety

Do you have Church Anxiety?

You would think that going to church should be anxiety free wouldn’t you? An email from someone came to me this week. ‘I was told [by a christian counsellor] that God’s antidote for anxiety was pray right, think right, do right. I went to church today and was filled with […]

Do you Feel You Have to Try Harder

Do you Feel You Have to Try Harder?

They wanted me to try harder. But when you’re in a dark hole of depression, or you don’t have the skills, energy, or even understanding, it can feel like yet another stone of struggle to carry. Confusion reigns, and the self-loathing chatter begins. It cycles around and around in the […]

Feeling Overwhelmed

Feeling Overwhelmed?

Feeling overwhelmed can feel like you’re caught in a flood, but you are not alone. Reach out.   I shut down. What was coming at me was too much. The brain was emotionally overloaded. I think I am a very sensitive person. Nothing wrong with that. My sensitivity helps me […]

When You Feel Rejected

When You Feel Rejected

We are created for connection, so feeling rejected can be harsh and cold. God gathers up the rejected.    I think I was the only one who saw him shrivel away under the rejection of others. He had tried to do something different. He wanted to be part of the […]