Going Through a Wave of Anxiety: The Providence of God

Going Through a Wave of Anxiety: The Providence of God

When waves of anxiety come, I need to dive into the providence of God. To feel held, known and loved.   This summer, here in new Zealand, I have been going for swims most days. I have a beach quite near to where I live and it’s a safe beach […]

I'm Anxious God

I’m Anxious God

Worries, fears, and anxieties can all bring us to a place where we pray ‘I’m anxious God’ but there is hope.  I went to see my Doctor the other day for my routine checkup.  ‘Anxiety’? he questioned.  I replied ‘No, everything is fine there’ But a seed had been sown, […]

Not my Circus, Not my Monkeys

Not my Circus, Not my Monkeys

The first time I heard the Polish proverb “Not my circus, not my monkeys” I felt quite shocked, but digging deeper, I understood what they were saying.  I heard it said by a husband about his wife.  It felt callous.  It felt cold and I still think it was.  That […]

I'm Building a Wall

I’m Building a Wall

 They had got so used to the intrusiveness of others that they didn’t even care anymore, but slowly a line in the sand appeared, then a fence and then they built a wall.   I enjoy being kind. I am generous, probably to my own detriment, but sometimes I feel […]

She Crossed a Line

She Crossed a Line

She crossed a line with her words, a line that was getting thinner with every wag of the tongue, but what could be done to help them both?     It was the evening of the very first day of the year (2025). A beautiful summer’s day here in New Zealand. […]

Even if it does me harm

Even If It Does Me Harm

We give and give, even if it does us harm, but what if we learned the limits and established a line?   People have said to me in the past ‘You need to set better boundaries’ I look and them and think. ‘Thanks for the encouragement. You really haven’t listened […]

Learning how to stop centering prayer

Learning How to Stop: Centering prayer

Our minds can be so busy, but learning how to stop is so crucial to our wellbeing. Perhaps centering prayer offers some help.  I was watching a two-year-old boy the other day. He was full on in active mode. Walking here and there, playing with this and that. But his […]

He watches over me

He Watches Over Me

We can feel alone, but to have someone there with us helps. He watches over me even in the dark of the night.   It’s the comfort of having someone there. I know of a young man that has trouble getting to sleep. At times one of his parents has […]

God, Give me Sleep

God, Give me Sleep

Restless nights, anxious thoughts, and a longing for sleep, but it alludes us. ‘God, give me sleep’ you pray   I’ve had times in my life where getting to sleep has been difficult. At other times, I would wake during the night and not be able to get back to […]

A Comfort at Christmas

A Comfort at Christmas

Christmas can have dark shadows, but what if God came close? God can provide a comfort at Christmas.    As I write this, I think of someone I know that has had a death in their family. It’s a loss, a grief, a tearing of relationship. Christmas. Will it be […]